on quitting.

i thought it was a good idea to quit. withdrawal from every thing is the easiest option; all one has to be confronted with is others asking, "where the hell have you been?" some times i still think it might be a good idea, but then i go to a dive bar and sing loud with all of my friends and throw the feelings of inadequacy out of the window for a few hours. that is where i feel the most complete. the following hours when i have forgotten how to be self-conscious are more fun than the days fretting over how somebody looked at me funny or responded to me in a way that i didn't like. every town has its ups and downs. and for right now the ups out-number the downs.